Starting New, Half A Year Done, Another Half To Dust

I always wonder how did time passed by so quick in one glance. It felt like just yesterday when I left home six years ago to pursue one-year matriculation program in Labuan. It all led to this moment, today. Coming back to the comfort of my hometown, sleeping in my old bedroom, adapting back to the lifestyle in my hometown and coming back to the bird nest I belong. It felt at first, surreal, looking at time. It is true what they say, adulating is an interesting journey of life. There were times that I felt like giving up, crushing down. There were times that things were going well, heading the way I wanted it to be. Of course, it was no bed of roses. It was filled with experience and knowledge. Sometimes, I question a lot of things to God, knowing that the answers will come to me one day, through many hints, life lessons, people that I have met along the way and the emotions I have given myself invested in.

I also started realising life is coming by so quick. I mean, look at this year, it is 2019, and little did I know, six months have come by, half the year is done and another half will be dusted off for 2020. What is next for me? What will I have next in store to venture around? I have been wondering, wandering like an explorer, being all around the place. To be honest, the last five years that took place in my life was not easy. Some of the first few adventures were my first. My “first” in exploring the world from my own lens. The “first” to finally no longer stand in anyone’s shadow, be my own Man, be my own Person be my Own Main Event. No longer do I stay in the minds of people thinking what they need but stay in the minds of what can we do to empower, change and bring forth a new sensible generation. I had the opportunity to be in volunteerism for several missions, but what should I do next for my own hometown? I had the chance to lead a language camp, but what can we do to build a new group of people? I am still thinking, what should be done to be better? I feel like time has come for me as well, to open my treasure box and replan what’s next for me? I am still on a journey in this chapter and I am still unsure what is next? Looking at life like a picture, shades of painting will reveal how it will turn out. Just like that, let’s unravel what’s ahead of us in time.

The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams. (Oprah Winfrey)

12.07am

2nd June 2019, Train of Thoughts.