Simplest Kind of Act

Sometines, the simplest kind of act comes in the form of figurative speech. I have never felt so comforted for quite some time. After doing transcription for classroom recording, I slept at 6.30a.m. and woke up at 12p.m. I felt so tired and decided to pull myself up together. Drank two cups of IndoCafe and ate Cheese breadstix for lunch. I went straight to Carel Room 4-3 to continue my transcription until 5.30p.m. 

After a half and hour break, I realised that I did not have a proper lunch just now and decided to take my late lunch which is almost dinner time at Mamak near Sri Tanjung. While on my way to the Main Door, a female security guard called me from a distance and the dialogue goes like this.

Female Security Guard : Dik sini dulu.

Me : Hello. Ye, ada ape?

Female Security Guard : Tak balik cuti ke?

Me : Tak delah, stay sini je.

Female Security Guard : Oh, yeke asal mane?

Me : Sarawak.

Female Security Guard : Oh, okay jauh. Pasti rindu famili ni..

Me : Smiling widely (Deep in my heart,God knows my true feelings smile emoticon ) and walking to the mamak to makan hehehehehe

Every mid-semester holiday, I will definitely have no chance of going back because of my commitment here with assignments,programs and activity. Sacrificing will definitely not hurt but sometimes the little kind words they say touch your heart. When I was going towards the Mamak Stall, she told me to take care and be safe. I feel very thankful and thought that it was thoughtful to say such words to me. At least, I feel contented, understood and concerned of. Who would not  feel homesick when you are away from home all tight up to this dimension full of life. It is not a bad thing, it is just that you need your solitude, your family for some time. I did not get to be a part of this for the last two years. I am not complaining but it made me realise that time is gold and family should be valued as time goes by. Before it is too late, parents get older,siblings grow older and move out and your favorite cousins are awkwardly in their adolescent years. Just four years my cutie boy cousin was four years old in his little clothing and fast forward he now attends primary school and is in standard two. See, I miss so much in the last two years and those short meet-ups are the ones that should be treasuring. Do not get me wrong, being away from family gives you an open mind to live independently and free. Go around places you never been, do things in curiosity and follow the flow of the winds. Alas, sometimes you need to stand firm on the ground, rediscover your roots and find your contentment. That is the reason when I return to Sarawak, I have to bear that in mind despite the constant fallouts and temptations. I hope that if you read this, you can relate to it, whether you are old, young,grumpy or moody, your sense of contentment which is your family should place a part in your heart. Home is where the heart, if your heart is there, it is home.

"You will always find your way back home."

Signing out, 

PHILIP YEOH BOON LENG "MR CUCKOOBIRD"

1.37 A.M

12/11/2015

I AM ALWAYS RIGHT...BUT I AM ALSO WRONG......

Ever wonder in life, if you have ever hurt people that you truly care,love and treasure and before it is too late, time flies and all you have left to do is look back and say, "I should have not done this or maybe I could have done better." Well, I did. If you say no, you are lying.

In the past few years, I have said some words unintenionally to friends and maybe I did not realise it that it actually offended them in some ways. I did not realise it until I started contemplating of words and actions and then my head goes,"Why did I do that?" or "I should have not said that to him/her". Trust me, we are all human beings and some how, somewhere we end up screwing things up, hitting rock bottom and crying in our soul. Lately, I was contemplating about my life. My attitude, my personality, my action,my words and perhaps, my outlook of life. I once heard this quote,"My attitude and personality are two different things, My personality depends on who I am and my attitude depends on how you treat me." Deep and very meaningful, so if you have been well pampered by your surroundings give a clap okay. However, on the contradict, I have no comment about that.

You may wonder why I mention all this words in text but I am trying to say, "We can all change together towards betterment, it is okay to screw up one few times but to make the best out of what you had scrutinized,you have to redeem yourself back by changing the bad sides of you. I have mine, but somehow I tend to admit it to myself. Living in denial and defending yourself will get you nowhere, but you might lose friends, trust and become a spasm of gossips. Ouch !!~~~

























SO THAT'S ALL FROM ME, THIS IS JUST A MATTER OF FREESPEECH AND GIVING OF OPINION. NO INTENTION NEEDED, JUST SHARING!

The Craving Of Pan Mee

Hello Everyone,

How have you been lately? Okay, I just want to update my post about food. Yes, food. If you follow up with my blog, you basically know that I am currently pursuing my tertiary studies in Tanjung Malim, Perak. A town that is about 2 hours away from KL. Being here, can be a mix of many emotions I must say. One thing, I manage to enjoy is eating good food with good friend. So , let me talk about an interesting dish, PAN MEE>.<

Well, before this I have never heard of Pan Mee. Yes, I know I am so "jakun" or sakai (Sarawakians Lingo). SO, one day my coursemate/ clown partner in crime and her very clen and organised nemesis invited me for a dinner at Restoran Tanjung Malim. Initially wanting to say no, I could not say no to food and invitation. So, we ordered the Pan Mee and the first try was unforgettable. They had Ma La Pan Me, and many more Pan Mee.

This is the view of the dining place.

The PAN MEE that causes the craving in all of us, even when I was on semester break I seriously crave it so much!

This is Hilary Khoo Ai Ling, the girl that I mention as my clown partner in crime.

Then, this little creature paid a visit.

Nice refreshments for the rainy weather.

I must say, I am indeed a foodie and I am not that choosy.

Well, she was satisfied and her name is Lye An Jie. She is very tidy, organised and neat, need those tips pronto/

Because the bowls were empty.

Introducing the hawker tauke that makes the best Pan Mee (in my book) in Tanjung Malim, Perak. Thank you for making us crave your Pan Mee every now and then. Will visit soon!!!!

LONG LIVE PAN MEE!!!

FILLING THE LACK IN THE BOTTLE

Dear Journal, 

I felt a little better than the previous days. I was listening to Different Summer by Demi Lovato.

I know that sometimes life can be so crazy, unexpected and memorable. I encountered it today.

I celebrated a good friend's birthday and I realised how much laughter there is in each of them.

My ideology is that sometimes a smile can light up the mood and I was lacking that. Thank you friends and I will not reveal who you are. I laughed, smiled and kept calm. Truth is, everyone has a mask and everyone has their true side. I have been reflecting myself, if I am capable of doing what is right and what is wrong. Sometimes, if a bunch of friends are not really treating you well, you are the problem but if one or two that means it's just a miscommunication.

I am really feeling the challenge in life. My heart speaks and said, "Why chose to be depressed?", pray and seek for answers. I was spending lesser time with God and focusing on being a part of this riot. I realised I need to stay grounded, pray and surrender to Him. If things do not go your way, it is because He has better plans for you. It is what we call the hidden callings. This is just my opinion. I am not the most pious person nor do I have a perfect attitude. I mess up big time, did lots of wrong doings in the past. Maybe it is a chapter of life it depends on how we rule life on Earth. 

USELESS

I honestly feel useless. Like seriously, I feel like I just want to pack up my luggage, go back to Kuching for a short vacation and kill my time. I miss my life in Kuching where people gets me. People like me and different than me. I am very used to have me twirled, twisted and pushed. Now, I am trying to reinvent myself. Things are bound to happen, but this is the reason why I remember being friendless because I feel more better. I remember at a time when I was completing matrix, I felt isolated and lonely. The fact that I become so preoccupied with work and task. Oh God, my heart is about to break into pieces and tranform into many slides of Philip. My oh my, congratulation Phil. You know what, you really screw it. At the end of the day, I shall put the blame and responsibility on my shoulders.
I am starting to wish that I can run away and never return. Because deep down inside, it is world where things are seem true yet hidden.

The Bottle That Stores The Emotion

I am feeling really tired, drained and at times, sad. I do not really get along or get myself attach to this emotion. Comparing myself to others, I have a shelter I call home, a desk for me to study and water from the pipe for me to drink and shower. I am really getting to a point that annoying situations lead to disturbing emotions. Yes, I do not know why not since then, I have stop complaining and stay silent. When I stay silent, people starts perceiving me and having impression which attracts negativity. I know I am a human and I need space. Today, something happened. I do not like to keep my emotions to myself, but then I am trying to keep my emotions away and stress from it. Why?? Must I encounter people that seems hard me to comprehend. I am no good person. Honestly, there are days I will express to a friend about how I feel about the and ridicule them. But at times, my heart truly cares for them. I am just like that, relevant and trying to stand the test of time. It is okay if personalties clash, because the thing that matters most is to realise how bless you are.

Trying to wonder my journey of life,
Like I am working from nine to five,
My tears drop down like flushes of seas,
But I am letting myself go the feast,

Give me the strength I need to move on,
As I remember this friendship bond,
Eyes are opened like shining stones,
Feeling it in every pinch of my bones.

I know I am a normal human,
Everyone feels the same hurdle,
Doors open and lights unbroken,
Signifying a new hope of riddle.

~PHIL~