I always wonder
how did time passed by so quick in one glance. It felt like just yesterday when
I left home six years ago to pursue one-year matriculation program in Labuan.
It all led to this moment, today. Coming back to the comfort of my hometown,
sleeping in my old bedroom, adapting back to the lifestyle in my hometown and
coming back to the bird nest I belong. It felt at first, surreal, looking at
time. It is true what they say, adulating is an interesting journey of life.
There were times that I felt like giving up, crushing down. There were times
that things were going well, heading the way I wanted it to be. Of course, it
was no bed of roses. It was filled with experience and knowledge. Sometimes, I
question a lot of things to God, knowing that the answers will come to me one
day, through many hints, life lessons, people that I have met along the way and
the emotions I have given myself invested in.
I also started
realising life is coming by so quick. I mean, look at this year, it is 2019,
and little did I know, six months have come by, half the year is done and
another half will be dusted off for 2020. What is next for me? What will I have
next in store to venture around? I have been wondering, wandering like an
explorer, being all around the place. To be honest, the last five years that
took place in my life was not easy. Some of the first few adventures were my
first. My “first” in exploring the world from my own lens. The “first” to
finally no longer stand in anyone’s shadow, be my own Man, be my own Person be
my Own Main Event. No longer do I stay in the minds of people thinking what
they need but stay in the minds of what can we do to empower, change and bring
forth a new sensible generation. I had the opportunity to be in volunteerism
for several missions, but what should I do next for my own hometown? I had the
chance to lead a language camp, but what can we do to build a new group of
people? I am still thinking, what should be done to be better? I feel like time
has come for me as well, to open my treasure box and replan what’s next for me?
I am still on a journey in this chapter and I am still unsure what is next?
Looking at life like a picture, shades of painting will reveal how it will turn
out. Just like that, let’s unravel what’s ahead of us in time.
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The biggest
adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams. (Oprah Winfrey)
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12.07am
2nd June 2019, Train of Thoughts.
