THE STRUGGLE YOU FACE TODAY WILL BE WORTH YOUR TOMORROW

Struggling all the time, everyday. It has been a mix of good and bad throughout my time in Tanjung Malim. Setbacks, sadness, pain and downspiral were part of it. There was a time I felt like I nearly hit a brink in my life. Wanted to take myself out of this zone and leave it. It did come to my mind. Other times, I told myself that I need to stay strong and make it through the day. Regardless how horrendous the pain is, the amount of backlash, I have to. Throughout my journey living away from home, I learn that the most of it definitely comes from you yourself. Only though yourself, you can determine what you are as a person. There was a time in my life I felt low in this campus. Everything that I once believe in went shattered like pieces of glass. Alas, it was a testing of time in me. If you ask me, “Do I want to revert back in time?” No. Not for now. I have clearly set my mind at that pace. Because my mind told me no longer to be on the care of others. The last time I did, I ate myself out of it. Phobia and fear. Nevertheless, things happened for a reason. Maybe it is all part of God’s plans.

          Every now and then, when I look back some moments in life. I will be super grateful for being part of it. Other times, I praise God for letting be part of this incredible journey of life. It is coming to an end soon. Somehow, all this journey that I endure will be memories. If I look back at it now, I hope I can be in blissfulness realising how I was granted some of the best times of my life. As of now, slowly but surely, this chapter shall close soon. For something either better, for something unexpected.

Not many people will understand each other, because most of the time we care for ourselves, including myself. 

1.18P.M.

SUNDAY

LIBRARY, 1st Floor.

LOOKING FOR LIGHTS!

DREAMS

DREAMS

Sometimes, we dream in our sleep,

Nightmares, sweet dreams, cliff hangers and deep nap,

I had this crazy dream,

That seems impossible for me.

Well, I believe as long as you dream,

As long as you live,

All these dreams will somehow be your dreams,

Chase it, live it and go run for it.

Making chances, taking places,

Chasing opportunities, to what encourages you,

I believe that we are all dreamers,

With personal goals and wishes.

But, if one day all my dreams do not come true,

I do not want to end up being sad about it,

In fact, I want to look back at it and say,

"At least I tried and there no regrets."

Here is to all the dreamers,

Who never felt worthy of themselves,

Trust me, you are indeed,

You just do not realise.

Dreams can be real, if you go out and chase it. 

7.59p.m.

18^th April 2018

The Places of Knowledge

~SUGARRUSH~

MOVING FORWARD

In this moment,

I am not in a good mood,

A mix of many emotions,

Filled with so many expressions

If only I could find out myself,

When I knew the answer actually,

I do not want to deny the truth,

But maybe honesty is the best policy.

Well, we cannot do much about it,

Because hurt and pain are many things,

We go through in life,

Cannot be taken back nor thrown away.

Wherever life brings me forward,

I will take it as open as I can,

To let go and slowly move away,

From what that happened to me actually.

I cannot say much about it,

But that is how I am at this moment,

Letting go and never looking back,

Because I think I have been happier than before.           

As of now, I shall open a new page,

Letting go of what it was,

Acknowledging what it is,

Hoping for better tomorrows.

~TO BETTER DAYS AHEAD~

8.13 p.m.

16th APRIL 2018

~LETTING GO SLOWLY BUT SURELY~

SUGARRUSH

IT IS NEVER EASY BEING A HUMAN

IT IS NEVER EASY BEING A HUMAN

It is never easy being a human,

A life filled with so many ups and downs,

A tale that makes everything so compelling,

Where only you know the whole arrangement of it.

It is never easy being a human,

Sometimes, you wish things were never so tough,

Other times, you just want to give up and let go,

While, most of the times, you lost touch with yourself,

However, often times, do not give up.

It is never easy being a human,

To strive in life in spite of the odds,

To smile and walk through the odd and even days,

To learn to let go and never look back.

It is never easy being a human,

When others treat you badly yet wrongly,

While you just slowly be strong in all these times,

Letting them win for the better.

It is never easy being a human,

When your heart is sometimes fragile,

Once poked and left out with holes,

Once hurt and never to heal.

It is never easy being a human,

To accept the truth of a situation,

To digest the reality that it has happened,

Moving on with better things in life.

It is never easy being a human,

You try to be nice to everyone,

Only to be taken over one way or another,

Letting them deserve those goodness.

It is never easy being a human,

But what is done is never reversible,

What is hurt is never healed,

What is wrong is never will be corrected.

It is never easy being a human,

You want to forgive and to forget,

Easy said than done when you try,

Only to eventually get yourself time and space.

It is never easy being a human,

From time to time things will slowly go its way,

When you slowly reflect and push through,

Because you are a warrior in your book.

It is never easy being a human,

Life is the way it is,

You can never blame the outcomes that happened,

Once it happened, learn from it.

It is never easy being a human,

It is never your fault anyways,

When time comes,

Perhaps, one day you will do well.

It is never easy being a human,

Because in life you will always do what is best for you,

God is your priority of all priorities,

And the people who mean the world to you.

Hence, live and love your life.

10.20p.m.

27 February 2018

Bing