Different people are making each other not any different from one another. What all these different people have in common is that these different people are all flaws and flairs of their own. We are people with different destiny, different goals and different visions. Sometimes, i am fearing of overthinking so much because i do not want to end up contradicting my thoughts. In my mind, what is happening to everything around? Will we all eventually make it through the day. I know for some point in my life, i will have more fears and doubts. The life of being an adult. The path towards adulthood and the road to being more and more older. I do too, feel the same as anyone who feels it. Nowadays, I realise not all the time that "money can buy" really matters. If you have a dream, you can always make it come true. This is life, the real world. The bittersweet reality that one shall endure. A phase we never expect.

Once bitten, twice shy

If I could turn back time, I definitely would go back in time. I still remember vividly being that small-town boy with dreams and fantasies. At nights that I could not sleep, writing would be my secret remedy. It was never my studies, it was never my compeitition to be the best in the class. Whatever happen to him? I really wish I could turn back time so I do no need to meet some people from the present. Because there are some that left me with so much scars. The scars have left pain, sorrow, hurt and isolation in me. If you knew me back then, you knew how much I enjoy life. Until now, I have experienced anxiety with so many people after the blow-up of my life. Everyone who tried to become close to me made me fear of what will happen in the future.Until now, I still fear of people who are close to me. It is not nice when someone hurts you badly. My goodness, yes I was strong all along. A person can tear another person down. It is the worst thing to ever happen. Still cannot accept what had happened to me, I can only say thank you for everything that you did. Although a lot of pain had happened at that time, I am glad I recovered slowly. All I can say is, pleasetake care of yourself, people. This world can be crazy. People would damage you and never say "sorry". Until now, the scars are still there. Thank you for giving me that scar, I appreciate it so much. 

If anyone ever felt lost, hurt or petrified all the time. No worries, these are parts and parcels of life that will leave you aware of who you are.

Many leaves will stay rooted to the shoot, but many will fall on the grass. As for this one, it is for keeps of many years to come.

1.06p/m.

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