IT WAS NOT MEANT TO BE
These
days, I have been drawing myself closer to God. It feels like everything within
me has changed about my views on religion. I am still learning, growing,
maturing and all the processes in between. It feels very touching to see that
some moments in life will bypass us somehow. Recently, I was very keen to
attend a “Spiritual Building Camp” at Bukit Mertajam, Penang. I did not know
the exact reason of my intention but I feel like part of me wants to grow in
Christ, grow in love, grow in faith and grow to everyone. It really feels so
nice when I realise the beauty that God has shown me.
Do not
misinterpret me, I still mess up, make mistakes and worn out myself at times.
Sometimes, I end up being in the worst part of me. I had a sudden epiphany that
God has been my strongest pillar of strength. At a time when I put God away
from me, blaming him for all the uncertainties, I realise I was being an
ignorant servant of his. I choose to spread negativity and bad vibes to people
This kind of ignorance has led me to realise that I have to change myself time
after time. It really has been a very challenging time for me. Life is short,
if I continue to create issues over good news, problems over solutions,
jealousy over support and hate over love, I will end up being the carestain
with a horrible heart. These days, I have been very contented with my life. I
have met some of the people whom I can call as my family. They look at me as a
brother and actually talk to me like a senior. They would drag me to places and
mural to take pictures and even make me feel like a young soul once again. They
are really great souls and my love for them is endless.
Although
religion is as important to everyone regardless of its belief system, it is
important for us to have a clear awareness of our intentions, relevance and
ego. Thank you to people whom I have crossed path, you teach me to be stronger
day by day. As much as it is important to pray, we also play a role in
spreading the good vibes, positive energy and channel the beautiful lights
around. Life is short, once we lose it, we cannot start over again.
